tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1393180381474894886.post771827548867613081..comments2023-08-01T02:07:41.209-07:00Comments on BrainCheeseMS: GRIEF VERSUS DEPRESSION IN MS...How Do We Know The Difference?BRAINCHEESEhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04478852688645497036noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1393180381474894886.post-50632178863169082862011-01-11T04:04:34.211-08:002011-01-11T04:04:34.211-08:00Thank you so much....My friend Judy (peace be with...Thank you so much....My friend Judy (peace be with you) passed this on to me. Every time I tell my neuro about my unrelenting fatigue or lessening function she brings up the "D" word. I have been clinically depressed in my younger years multiple times...I KNOW what that feels like. That is NOT what is happening now. I do feel some sadness, anger, disappointment that I'm not feeling better on the medication I'm on the way her "other patients" are (which she tells me all the time...as though this should make me feel better or buck up and get with the program). I am feeling a bit anxious and frightened because she told me yesterday that I have JCV and we need to reassess staying on Tysabri (I've now had 14 doses), which limits the few treatment options available even more. But that was yesterday...today I can see that I was getting caught up in the story of "what if, what if what if" and this morning, after meditating I am feeling more peaceful about "what is" (still fatigued, and still having difficulty walking, and certainly annoyed at my doctor, but sending her lovingkindness to ease that up) but I am not in the acute panic phase I felt last evening after talking with her. I think I am perfectly normal and she is fixated on presuming that ALL of her patients are living with underlying depression...I disagree. I have told her this before...and every time we come to a cross road like this (the last time it turned out that Gabapentin had become toxic to me and was what was making walking a part of my past and all kinds of other weird phenomena...that she was quite sure was depression until other practitioners observed me and they did a round table discussion on me)...I started buying into her theory briefly yesterday. But NOT today. I have freakin' MS and every body is different their is no miracle cure or fix that works for everyone...AND we will figure out the next "move"...AND I'll adjust...I always do.<br /><br />So again, thank you...I feel reassured by my own assessment of what is going on in my heart as totally normal...and ready to call my other neuro in Boston and find out if perhaps she sees an alternate reality from my "can't fix it you must be depressed" local neuro. Good thing I have a team of people looking out for me!!!<br /><br />Have a wonderful day...the clouds are just starting to pink up with the sun:)Laurahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15349928247626849914noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1393180381474894886.post-17067632977917135732006-06-13T16:42:00.000-07:002006-06-13T16:42:00.000-07:00I have to thank you for sharing this information. ...I have to thank you for sharing this information. I'm definately in the grieving process, and didn't know quite what to do about it. I wonder at times 'how long will this last?' I guess it will last as long as I ignore it and not take action to face it and deal.<br><br>I'm finally at that point, at least I hope I am. And I'm learning it's a process that is hard, will take some time, but will be worth it in the long run. =o)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com